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Category Archives: Our Adoption Journeys

Balance Babblings

Well, I heard from Jenuine. And thankfully she’s okay. I’m so relieved. But that leads me to the subject of balance. Balance is hard to strike in most parts of life…in open adoptions, it seems doubly hard. Do you ever wonder if you’re doing enough in your open adoption relationship? Or too much? Lately, I’ve […]

Adoption Home Study Gone Wild!

Our daughter, who was 15 at the time of our home study may have been the most anxious famly member about bringing a baby into our home. She was on cloud nine about it, and decided to put in applications in our area for a job so she could buy her little brother “cool” clothes, […]

Birth Sibling Communication CH. 2

Ah. Finally heard back from the other family. It seems unlikely that our children have the same biological mother but there is enough matching information to indicate that they could be related. Possibly cousins? I had held out hope that Kiwi’s bio mother was still alive and I hoped overnight that this would lead to […]

Birth Sibling Communication CH. 1

This is very early in our story but I wanted to start sharing my thoughts and feelings about a potentially life changing event in our lives. If it pans out it would be a very positive and welcomed change. I received an email this morning from a woman who saw my entry on the Guatemala […]

Queen of Worry…Starting at the End

I know I should probably start at the beginning, but I’d rather talk about the present right now. I miss Jenuine, Babygirls’ bmom. I haven’t heard from her since late last year. I know that things are rough for her right now, as family members are sick and hurting. I’ve tried to contact her several […]

In the beginning there was just one, part 2 and 3

Some of my friends struggled with the loss of the dream of adopting when they became pregnant. Not ME!!! I just wanted more children, preferably a whole pile. The method really did not matter. Because of my daughter’s condition I was automatically high risk. Got my first level 2 ultrasound at 7 weeks. Of course […]

Boys will be boys

We decided not to try and influence our son about likes and dislikes. We weren’t going to encourage him to play sports, play with bugs, stomp in mud puddles, play with trucks unless he first showed interest. We just wanted him to be him whatever that was going to be. How in the heck did […]

I want another child. No I don’t.

There are alot of years between my two children. My oldest child is grown, my youngest is a toddler. When our son was visified and joined our family I was happier than I had ever been in my life however, I longed to have another child for his sake and mine. I wanted him to […]

More on the beginning

This was written on March 22, 2006..  (I will eventually write in current times, promise!) Sunday (March 5th) I was in such a cranky mood. Finally resigned to the fact that she wouldn’t be here until Friday when B was going to be induced. I didn’t want to call B because I knew if I […]

Reflecting on Stan’s effect on our family

  It has been raining all day today, something I used to enjoy especially on weekends as I found the sound of rain calming. It made for a relaxing weekend to listen to the rain, relax and veg. Now I cringe and enter a state of anything but relaxation. Rain nowreminds me of a devastating […]